Confession: I actually kind of totally hate running.
Several years ago I “dealt” with that, immersed myself in the hoo-hah and ran consistently (3-5 times a week) for about 4 years. Finally, after an unpleasant ‘clicking’ sound coming from my right knee during the Shamrock Run, I thought its time to call it quits and no matter how much Irish beer I drank that day the pain remained.
My problems with running are numerous. First, there’s no TV and chips! But, even when consciously thinking about it, I have a difficult time with pace. I find that without constant attention, I’m running s-l-o-w or I’ll run too fast at any given moment. That means, I’m always gasping for breath or near it all the time. Second, I think I may be a defective runner as I wander… all over the path rather than in a direct and straight line. The fact that my arms are wailing around like I’m rowing a boat doesn’t help. Second, part 2, even though the medical doctors aggravated me during my knee problems about youth and age and during rehab about age and youth blah, blah, blah it motivated me to try the bike, but you know what? That small seat hurts my butt! What are they thinking? I have none of this discomfort while watching TV!
But perhaps the biggest hurdle is that I never like admitting exactly how out of shape I really am when getting back into trying to run again. I have a friend of a friend…yes, that would be Tina that I compare myself to, who can get up after not running for
a year weeks and run a 10K or buy new shoes, fly into a sunny location and just like that finish the marathon. What’s up with that?! So, my recourse is to just force myself to run full-steam until I’m miserable and deadly exhausted.
But, a terrific thing has come into my life that have made running not only possible, not only something I feel I need to do, but, shock and awe, semi-enjoyable. I actually have thoughts like “I want to leave work early and go for a run now.” Maybe it’s just the leaving work early part or:
My iPod+Nike adapter kit, hoo-hah. Knowing that I’m running a 6:40 mile down hill when totally out of shape makes me slow down because I know I can’t maintain it on flat ground. The consistent feedback from this little Apple thingy lets me know when I’m getting out of line. Plus, as a bonus I can listen to music. And oh yeah, you have charts and graphs and other motivational things online…sort of the give a mouse a cookie syndrome…
So there you have it. It’s already February, and looking back at the past month I feel okay with my schedule, but its time to ratchet it up.